chains of needing.

her spotlight
shines through me, leaving me vulnerable
to the whims of her fancy.
i can't breathe when she holds me
for fear i will break the weak bonds
she's tethered to me.
her fingers lightly grasping my arm
as if she lets go
i will float away from her.
she is mistaken
i am no balloon.
filled with desire to go nowhere,
i am forever her shadow,
willing her to stay in the light so that i can be close to her.
secretly, i despise myself
for wanting her so badly
for needing her so badly
clouds rolling in over my thoughts
when she is vacant from my bed.
she makes me see clear skies
as she makes waves between my thighs,
my wall disappates and i let her in
in all her knighted glory,
she knows all my secrets,
but all i know is my reflection
in her suit of armor.
i am afraid that once uncloaked,
she will be just as afraid as i am.
two scared souls,
with no direction
except forward.
too many dimensions need exploring.
i feel too broken to be pieced together lovingly,
so i sit with bated breath
so as not to break the bonds
she's tethered me.